sami's mom died today.
freshman year of high school she found out she had a brain tumor, and underwent chemo and radiation. it's been in remission until earlier this year, when she had a stroke and lost all function on her left side. they took her into the hospital about a week and a half ago and found out that the tumor had grown into her brainstem and that her kidneys were failing. so they've pretty much just been waiting.
sam is pretty shut down about it. she said her mom hasn't been her mom for 2 months, so she's relieved, but that she doesn't really know what to do. she won't really talk about it; she never talks about things until she's ready. our phone conversations today have been short because i can't say anything to make it better and she's pretty matter-of-fact about it. i know that she's feeling it because she feels things deeply, and that it must be killing her, but she's always been the strong one in the family. i hope she realizes that she doesn't have to be the strong one with her friends.
it's hard enough to lose a parent when you've had a whole lifetime with them, let alone when you're young. sam's only 20. her mom was going to be 48 this week.
so maybe take the time to call someone that you haven't talked to in a while. or tell someone how you feel about them, if that's something you don't do often. people deserve to know that they mean something to you. we could all do with a little more love in our lives.
those you've known,
and lost, still walk behind you...
they linger till they find you...
the world grows dark around you-
and nothing is the same until you know that they have found you.
'those you've known' - spring awakening